20 Dollars

Some days I feel like this family isn't my family lol
Sometimes I just feel like the odd one out, the awkward middle child, the lost one ...I think its because of the way I think, the way I take into account others feelings whereas everyone else in my family has the "don't give a fuck" mentality..and yes, I too sometimes just don't give a fuck but I do think about other people alot..just to make sure I'm being fair..you know what I mean? And I don't know why I do that because others don't take into account the way I feel. I assume....
I think im just genuinely a good person at heart but my good intentions may come off other than good intentions...eh

Today some guy in front of me dropped $20 dollars..and INSTANTLY..with out even THINKING...I say "hey you dropped your money" ....INSTANTLY...that quickness just validated the fact that I feel I'm a good person...just naturally...and as soon as I said it my mom shot me a look like "bitch" lol

I felt bad because of the reaction my family had to that..they said I should have put my foot over the money...But in my mind..I would have felt kinda guilty and thought of all the things that money could have been for...maybe he needed it to pay his rent, maybe he needed to buy food, maybe he needed to buy diapers or baby food..you know what I mean??? Am I the only one who thinks this way??


Ah well, I believe that I will be rewarded ten fold for that honesty, don't cha think?

;)