Revisit

I wrote this in early May

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I’ve taken this memory and shoved it to the furthest corner of my mind.

Now I revisit it.

There are certain screams that will replay in your mind
But it must be dark it must be deep.
This scream rolls down the front of my body and into my stomach causing me to lock my eyes from the pain.
It’s loud and if it scratched me I would bleed.

I was a child with big eyes that absorbed everything like a brand new sponge.
When life dripped its pain on me I swallowed it
When life dripped its pain on me I placed it in a part of my memory I knew I wouldn’t revisit until today.

I can tell that he thought his hands were powerful so that made him powerful
His loud voice casted a thick grey cloud over the house and it rained rained rained.
The raindrops fell into my eyes and fell out racing down my cheek with the real tears that were forming
And I sat there
I screamed there
I lived there.

I can tell that he thought his hands were powerful so that made him powerful
His loud voice casted a thick grey cloud over the house and I penetrated it with a bow and arrow cupid left on the stairs for me
Hoping that if I shot it with love the house would be covered with care and affection
But instead it was covered with black tears that left stains on our faces.